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{July 12, 2013}   Trauma

Last week, my therapist brought up the concept of trauma. Evidently something I wrote or said made him think that there might be some trauma in my past. Now, don’t get me wrong, my life hasn’t been roses and rainbows, but I never really considered anything that happened to me in my past to actually be trauma. It sounds dramatic. I feel like the word trauma is reserved for people who have been to war or have been physically/sexually abused as a child.  It just seems like everything else is part of life. Right? Sure, shitty things may have happened or life could have just sucked for a while. But what exactly is trauma? 

And why exactly does it matter if I have experienced trauma or not? Does it really affect my recovery? Can’t I just admit I’ve had some shitty things happen to me and go on? I don’t want to rehash anything or talk about how it made me feel. It happened and it sucked. What else is there to discuss? People have had it worse than I have and are fine. There is no need for me to ramble on about how something made me feel 10 years ago, 20 years ago, etc. 

So, if you are reading this…. do you think trauma plays a part in addiction, eating disorders, etc? And how do you feel it affects recovery? 



{November 13, 2012}   Why?

Why do I let everyone take advantage of me? Why do I spend all my time with people who take advantage of me anyway? Why don’t I respect myself more than this? Speak up and stand up for myself? I don’t get it. But it’s starting to piss me off.



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